when i went back to macau this past summer, i felt like a visitor even tho i was born in there. to my surprise, this place became completely new to me. i even had a hard time finding a place to stay. it's really sad that i cannot feel the sense of belonging anymore.

so i thought i must have become a new yorker since i lived here for 11 years

but i am hesitated to call myself a chinese american . . .

. . . then what should i be?

being very productive on job hunting (online shopping as well ) today, i haven't stayed up so late for a long time (party doesnt count!).
it reminds me of college when i was locked myself inside the architectural building for 48+ hours.

please let me get a job soon, puhleaseee!!?

第一次用心去聆聽盧廣仲, 原來他擁有那麼好的嗓子...

梁靜茹 & 盧廣仲─「不是我不明白」

作詞：李焯雄　作曲：林倛玉　編曲：陳建騏　

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
懂得愛說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

會進來嗎　你在送我回家我還在猜測　那都是真的嗎
再見面前　一直想像還有某種關聯　但客氣是拒絕
新的朋友　不再重疊　你的世界　我在邊緣

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
後來的愛　我們嘗試去款待
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

男：沒說分手　終於是能開玩笑的朋友　不是不難過的
女：多少年了 (多少年了)　我想過能夠和你一起老的
合：卻都有別人了　新的朋友　不再重疊　我的世界　你在邊緣

合：不是我不明白　有些我沒說出來
　　能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
　　後來的愛　我們嘗試去款待
　　懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
女：沒刻意掩埋 (沒有)　男：沒對她坦白　合：你還在

女：不是我不明白　合：說被愛並不應該
　　我們的關懷　像愛但又說不上愛
　　沒有後來　我們才學會愛
　　但現在　說來感慨　不是那個未來
女：我們說好的 (說好的)　男：不會更改的　合：你會在

from hello mini 25

• read 12 books (a good start to develop reading habit)
• take one course every semester - spring, summer and fall
• log on to facebook once a day for 10 mins only
• take more pictures with my family
  

Let's raise our glasses and welcome 2010

i know it will be a fruitful year *cross fingers*

i couldn't remember when i started to develop such a strong affection towards these teddy bears,
i won't sleep well without them

they are the "Gordon" teddy bears from Gund,
(from the left)
BearG, who has been with me for more than 7 years
細蘇, who is my little lucky charm
金金, who just joined the bear family a week ago!

my second half of 2009 has been quite bumpy.

If . . .
Getting the pink slip is the appetizer,
Being sick constantly is the first course, 
the snowboard accident is the second course,

 

then is there a dessert coming up? where is it?

but two more weeks, then 2009 will be over...i just can't wait!

 

其實我很擔心. . . .

 

可否讓我盡情放聲大哭一埸, 我快要崩潰